Sssshhh!

Haven't blogged in a while? Overwhelmed by the family drama, financial constraints, restless nights of writing papers and reading countless articles, crying siblings, and the boo, I swear I have had no time to express the way I feel. Sometimes I believe that my thoughts and feelings are being devalued to satisfy another, often times I am  being told to be quiet or it's not my place to speak on that particular subject. Feeling shunned, overheard, and ignored, I tend to shut down because I feel that others don't want to hear the high tones of this girl! I'm not an expressive person only because I have been behind a wall of sound proof glass begging for someone to hear my thoughts. Just because I'm not the loudest nor the most combative individual, I still believe that I should be heard. Laying my head down on my pillow feels as if my mind picks up a pen and begins to write the chapter of my life that was silenced earlier that day. Maybe this is why I enjoy the quiet of my studio apartment rather than the constant shuffling when around others. My thoughts continue to swirl through my mind, but I'm unsure of how to express, maybe I'll continue to write them down hopefully someone will read them and care!